Does anyone else feel like this sometimes? ?

I've been wanting to play the piano for a very long time. I'm 34 and it's been at least since I was 5. I've been able to finally at 23 but it's hard. I still can't afford a piano. I saw man buy his 4 1/2 daughter a keyboard that I would LOVE but can't afford. I think it's really unfair. Life is a crapshoot and is never fair. But why do people say that life is fair? Isn't this what Republicans say? Who is to say that I or other people wouldn't make great pianists or composers or whatever if we had the real opportunity? Music lessons cost a fortune as does music equipment. Jobs in music don't pay much. But how many people love music? I think the U.S. really is awful at a lot of things and is horrible at focusing on a quality life rather than a quantity life. What do you think?